Once I agreed that love stays where you least expect it, but at this point, if we agree that home is where the heart is, we might as well agree that Home is where Love is.
Dear…,
It’s been three years since I first wrote. I’m now wiser, smarter, and better, but obviously still without you, as I’m shamelessly sharing this to the public—more like the person who really wants to read this. Maybe to you too just that we haven’t happened yet. Or we haven’t listened to our hearts.
Time is still running its course in the earth even though it’s in trickles now, and it’ll soon be out. Lol, if we’re friends now, definitely we’re taking something beautiful that’d defy space and time to be eternal like the One who loved us first. Time and time again, I’ve wondered and mischievously asked God if angels could randomly be going on an assignment and then they start humming a song of earthly origin. If we could have a best friend in heaven or the Millennial Reign and prefer the company of that one so much… But I’m quick to remind myself that these are selfish questions.
For updates’ sake, I haven’t exactly learned how I’m going to pop the big question. I’ll probably still be sentimental and shy, like a boy holding onto a wonder in a world that moves too fast to feel— insecure because I don’t know if you really see me for me and chose me not because you want something better but because you simply wanted me with whatever hideous reason you have.
Calm down now. (Laughs) I know my assumption is bold and loud. What if you haven’t any experience like me to be able to recognise something better. What if you didn’t choose me for any reason at all because time and space could make them wear and tear?
I, however, think I’ll be able to tell you that you’re beautiful without sounding cliché, but like I said in my last letter, treasure the written words of my heart, for they don’t stammer; my spoken words may.
Alright, before depth goes too deep and people start to pity me, I better end it here.
But before I end it, you may wonder if I am sad? Nope. I’m just an Overthinker. Lol, I’ve asked myself many questions. I’ve asked my mum, pastor, lol even Chat GPT. Hey, I’m now also more interesting too! Although some people call it weird still, it doesn’t matter. I’m better at Chess and I’m finally public with my Arsenal fan support. This means I am some people’s favourite subject of banter.
Even more better and interesting is that I’m a great designer too. The progress I’ve made is super exponential… Lol, you probably know about all this. So what now? Come into the light or I figure this out myself?
See you soon, I guess… or not…
Young Vibe 