When I turned 18, I made a list of things I wanted to be and do. A few items on that list made it to list 19. So am I here to say some also made it to list 20? Probably yes.
I’m also here to give an update too!
So let’s get into it, shall we?
Oh by the way, I think I learnt how to say I love you even though I haven’t used those words. The opportunity was scarce unless I’m with Dumebi, of course. I’ve also learnt how to give hugs and receive them.
Remember last year, I also wrote that I need to recognize that I’m the king’s kid and thus sufficient in Christ? Well, I’m still working on that. Just that it’s now on a new level. So for now, it’s going to be number one on List 20.
– Recognize I’m the King’s Kid: I’m self-sufficient in Christ… I mean God is my source. Sometimes, things happen many times and at times I don’t quickly remember my inheritance in Christ and God as my source. I try to get everything done by myself sometimes by intensifying my prayers for my parents- which isn’t bad per se and making draft plans on how to make more money but God is always faithful. He inspires ideas and makes provision for all that I need…all the time.
PS: I’m still on the matter of making money, BTW. I’m a graphic designer and attached to this blog post is the link to my portfolio. Click here to view.
Thank you so much!
– Recognize that Leadership is encoded in me. Perhaps if you have read some of past lists or write-ups, you’d be probably wondering why I’m still ‘recognising’ it. Well, it’s because of the way God has been promoting me and I’d admit I’ve been scared of another promotion even though I can’t reject it. It’s such an honour to serve the Lord in every capacity but sometimes I think I’m just clouded and tend to ‘break’ but God is always faithful. He strengthens! In the space of one year and 9 months, I’ve metamorphosed from that fresher to a leader in different capacity… but I won’t lie, It’s been a rough ride balancing one and all together plus I’ve complained a few times. I wouldn’t also tell you the truth that I’m excited about increasing my leadership responsibility. I broke on a few occasions.
Now this is beyond work in God’s house. I’m talking about juggling academics in one of the most prestigious schools in Nigeria with extramoral and curricular activities I’ve somehow found myself. I one time resigned to take up an administrative role in helping manage an NGO’s social media account. I once told my Pastor that I’d like to quit being in a unit I was assigned to because I struggled with the work.
– Pay attention to my writing and designs. Someone once said a group of writers is called procrastination. Another commented we’d rather mop a river than complete a book. I don’t blame us actually ’cause when we start a book and look at it after several months, a year, we can’t believe we actually wrote that. It’s so unbelievably dumb immature. So many times we just run on impulse because they are short-lived. With school and everything, it’s also very difficult to keep up but it’s something I’m very resolute to do. I’m going to really improve on my designs.
– Learn not to get too comfortable. Sometimes, when we set a target or put up a goal. Along the way, we achieve a few things and begin to feel cozy and comfy. Sometimes, it happens that we deliberately leave the goal and stay on flex using the excuse that God called us to enjoy life to the fullest. Now this isn’t a constant thing in our lives but surely there’s been one time in our life when we got cozy. Move and press on; Don’t stop here!
PS: It’s an advice to myself that I would listen to next week. Why? I wrote a letter to my future self that I’d like to take a break. Perhaps you should read it. I told him
Dear Future Me,
You are probably chilling or maybe even working out your head for future you…
But guy, I’m here to tell you that I do commot hand for the time being for your matter. Lemme enjoy the present, first. This beautiful journey of the now without having to be too obsessed about the destination.
Don’t sweat it. We both know our future is bright. You can do the same too.
Exactly!
– Sponsor my first 100 copies of Rhapsody of Realities at once. It’s always been a dream to do this once. Though if all I did in year be counted, maybe it is up to or less but it’s always a dream to do it at a shot. You could help me make this a reality too!😅
By the way, the price doubled. It was 30k to sponsor a hundred copies last year, now it’s 60k. The Lord, Our Source right?
– Pay attention to my 1 Year Bible Reading Plan. I don’t know how to just drag my ears well enough to catch up with my Bible study plan. And indeed, I’ve carried this list into list 20 and I’m still trying my best. Yes, I’ve done a comprehensive study on some NT Epistles but it ain’t enough. Yes, I’ve studied some entire Bible books in a day but it ain’t enough😂😭
-Be there for people. Many times I feel I underestimate people and their welfare. I look at the ones in my life and the grudge they may have against me just because I wasn’t there when they went through a loss. I remember the memories of the ones I lost to suicide. Several times I beat myself up but I know I can be better. I know I have a heart that cares. There’s just something I could have done to prevent or reduce the effect of what may have happened.
– Realize that birthdays are not necessarily for a celebration of achievements but a reflection on the past and a projection to the future. Or maybe I just need someone to just sit me down and tell me what I’ve achieved so far and how amazing I am. It’s funny and ironic how I’m reading this and I remember being excited about my 19th birthday even though it kinda turned a lil bit ‘crappy’ but warm. Now I’m celebrating a sort of milestone birthday and I’m just here with no plans, just looking blandly at my screen, contemplating where I should disappear so that I don’t get to see some people’s feigned form of affection for me. Abi, I should just put my phone on DND on my birthday?
Feigned love, you say? The truth is you don’t care about people if you don’t even care about what makes them unique. You really love them heh? That’s your friend? Why don’t you listen to her podcasts? Because she’s not on Glitch Africa? You don’t watch her videos because she’s not Korty? You don’t patronise her cake business or share her cake flyer because you’re a model and an influencer for two others.
Ka’abo. E ku ise.
– Get satisfied that many times people won’t have the mental energy for me. Lol, I mean I’m like the weirdest in my pack but this doesn’t mean I am not loved by people. They love me in their special ways. I believe there’s someone who needs to hear this too.
But you know, on this journey of self-recovery as I’d not like to use discovery, it’s almost as if ‘other people + their opinion’ is impossible. 😂
Use me for an example, it is said that one of my greatest strengths and weakness‘ is communication. Like what in the actual magical jingle sprinkle does that opinion mean?
While it’s very wrong not to acknowledge people’s opinion of oneself, it’d be self-deceit not to recross check.🙃
– Even as much as I love and want my space, I guess I have to realize God has many kids. All of them with the special personality that has God reflected in their lives thus I have to be accommodating… Including to the ones that feel very entitled in your space… But who under the heavens does that?! That’s how someone said I’m not a caring person.
Currently, I indeed am in my own space after some rather crazy drama and heavy pressure from my parents but sometimes it gets lonely. Do I love it? Absolutely yes!
– No lady on my mind this time? Yep. No. No lady on my mind. Am I telling you the truth? I don’t know 🌚😅
– Visit Akwa-Ibom. I’d really love to visit this place because of the new people I’ve met. I’ve met some pretty amazing people who hail from here. My aunty is also from here. My cousins have been here. My ears are always filled with endless chatter about this place.
– Build my shape. Yes, even though not so athletic, I think I might need to start shedding this ‘boyish’ nature and build a more mature shape.
List 20 it is… I guess it’s a happy birthday to me😊
Young Vibe 