List 19

When I turned 18, I made a list of things I wanted to be and do.
Soo I just turned 19 and the list has been… well… fun even though some of the items on the list made it to list 19.
Now this is going to be a long read list so I’d advise you get comfortable. Grab a popcorn and a drink or something

– Number one, Learn how to say I love you without flinching: Even though I’m getting pretty good at this due to the fact I’m in BLWUNN; a place where people say it freely and even threaten you saying “I love you so much and there’s nothing you can do about it”

– Recognise I’m the king’s kid. I’m self sufficient in Christ… I mean God is my source. Sometimes, things happen many times and at times I don’t quickly remember my inheritance in Christ and God as my source. I try to get everything done by myself sometimes by intensifying my prayers for my parents- which isn’t bad per se and making draft plans on how to make more money but God is always faithful. He inspires ideas and makes provision for all that I need…all the time.
PS: One time, I asked my mum for money and she was like ‘Check your WhatsApp’. I was like ‘Okay??’. I did and guess what? She sent me a video where the Esteemed Pastor Biodun Lawal made a prayer commanding money to come to us and casting out the demon of begging and debt. Lol🤭

– Recognize that Leadership is encoded in me. Perhaps if you have read some of past list or write ups, you’d be probably wondering why I’m still ‘recognising’ it. Well, it’s because of the way God has been promoting me and I’d admit I’ve been scared of another promotion even though I can’t reject it. It’s such an honour to serve the Lord in every capacity but sometimes I think I’m just clouded and tend to ‘break’ but God is always faithful. He strengthens! In the space of six months, I’ve metamorphosed from that fresher to a leader in different capacity.
I actually shouldn’t be scared. This is God helping me to fulfill a vow to him while I was processing admission into the University of Nigeria, Nsukka. I had told him if I got the admission in the supplemtary list, I’d do more service in the BLW fellowship there. I’m sure someone would have scoffed at me if he heard me say that ’cause what else would I want to do examining my passion for God and the Loveworld Nation…
Truth is I could decide that I’d just be a regular nice guy who shows up only Sunday and Wednesday and then face my academics squarely… Writing this, I’m legitly wondering, would I have done this? Nah I doubt it.
PS: There are actually lot of guys within our seal team who are A+ students and very committed to the work of the ministry. So I’m not scared. I’m only inspired.

So this was a long one, let’s head on item 4. I told you this was a long read.

-Pay attention to my writing. This! This!! This!!! Someone once said a group of writers is called procrastination. Another commented we’d rather mop a river than complete a book. I don’t blame us actually ’cause when we start a book and look at it after several months, a year, we can’t believe we actually wrote that. It’s so unbelievable du-mb immature. So many times we just run on impulse because they are short-lived.

– Get satisfied that many times people won’t have the mental energy for me. Lol, I mean I’m like the weirdest in my pack but this doesn’t mean I am not loved by people. They love me in their special ways. I believe there’s someone who need to hear this too

-Learn how to wear a tie correctly. March 27, 2022 I wore my first tie. It was quite weird but it was cool. It later felt natural.

– Get my mind off that girl. So there’s this girl in the choir that… Nah Wisdom, compose… You are not thinking about… I think that’d be all.

-Comfort myself with the fact that not knowing how to dance isn’t a bad thing. So I have two left legs in dancing bit this doesn’t mean I don’t know how to dance. You should see me dance in my room. You know blessed us, we’re winning the war against dancers. I mean Pastor Chris has opened our house eyes to Dance in the place of worship and prayer.

-Learn not to get too comfortable. Sometimes, when we set a target or put up a goal. Along the way, we achieve few things and begin to feel cozy and comfy. Sometimes, it happens we delibrately leave the goal and stay on flex using the excuse that God called us to enjoy life to the fullest. Now this isn’t really a constant thing in our lives but surely there’s been one time in our life where we got cozy. Move and press on; Don’t stop here!

– Sponsor my first 100 copies of Rhapsody of Realities at once. It’s always been a dream to do this once. Though if all I did in year be counted, maybe it is up to or more but it’s always a dream to do it at a shot.

– Pay attention to my 1 Year Bible Reading Plan. I don’t know how to just drag my ears well enough to catch up with my Bible study plan. I mean I can’t take this unaccomplishment to List 20. Yes, I’ve done a comprehensive study on some NT Epistles but it ain’t enough

-Be there for people. Many times I feel I underestimate people and their welfare. I look at the ones in my life and the grudge they may have of me just because I wasn’t there when they went through loss. I remember the memories of the ones I lost to suicide. Several times I beat myself up but I know I can be better. I know I have a heart that cares. There’s just something I could have done to prevent or to reduce the effect of what may have happened.

– Realize that birthdays are not necessarily for celebration of achievements but a reflection on the past and a projection to the future. Or maybe I just need someone to just sit me down and tell me what I’ve achieved so far and how amazing I am.

– Even as much as I love and want my space, I guess I have to realize God has many kids. All of them with special personality that has God reflected in their lives this I have to be accomodating… Including the ones that feel very entitled in your space… But who under the heavens does that?!

Incase you counted, it’s not up to 19 but I wouldn’t want to bore you with the rest. Thank you for staying thus far.

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